all in one?wtf

Been having headache frequently which is like a contribution to my dizziness... Too much dy! i tell you... Now i've gotta look for a new place to stay since the landlord is selling off this unit wtf... Actually this post was supposed to be a happy one but the things took a turn, and therefore its a "about problem" post wtf.

Guess wat? Another "lost property" case happened again at my place! JENG!JENG!JENG! wtf. This time it's a RM 400 lose in the living room. I really don't understand la, why so much of this kind of problem de.. At least this time i wasn't in the list!!! AT LAST!!! PPL SEE ME INNOCENT!!!wtf... The consequence? We all have to go our separate ways :( Maybe its a better way for everyone but then i'm gonna miss u peeps la... Never would i imagine that i will feel this way, guess there's really a bond between us.... I'm trying to look for a good place to stay now, only to find myself crying...wtfwtf... It's not easy you know, to find a good place with good ppl to stay with like this place that i'm staying...

I've been looking around like the whole of Wangsa Maju for a perfect little master room with a attached bathroom. So much for the fucking headache..Let's put our hands together for the exams...Clap!Clap!Clap! WTF. Today is the last day for my last paper-PR. Resit paper some more! Shit la! I get to feel like this is not a good year for me. Turning 21 might be the tragic turning point of my life, like everyday is so fucking not my day! What the heck is wrong with the world?! It must be turning anti-clockwise now!!!

Went to Genting the other day at 10pm for a twist but end up sulking!! Aww...it's not that i'm complaining but then....sigh...didn't went well... Fuck the gastric!!WTFWTF! I just hate it when plans turned ugly...On the journey to and from Genting, my mind flashed back to the last time i went there with 6 other friends, dearly close friends, which now ends up to be scattered dunno where...I remenbered the 3days 2nights trip very well, as if it just happened yesterday...sob... Miss you peeps too...


The Theme Park that i miss!!



A random ,i mean the only pic i took
at Genting...

The weight seems moving along now...not bad for the pills huh? Looking forward for more night outings these days. Hey!! Its HOLIDAY!!! But not much to do but to earn money and no extra spending ok!since i'll be moving out again...sigh...By the way, the blog that i always refers to is now officially GONE!!! Yeap...don't ask me how and why because i don't fucking know bout it either...Looks like its really time to push things further huh? Guess so! No more 'fun in Melbourne' bedtime story...It sounded so fun, you know, spending a few years aboard with friends, studying. Wish i could have the chance but then, i'm not that lucky though... Different ppl, different luck...Its true, at least i believe in it though!

Been fighting with Shah recently...Actually its a pointless fight, cold war or whatever you call it.. Today i really pissed her off....Got her on her nerves...well not fully my fault...and i don't wanna go to that part...My headache strikes again...which cause a week's delay to this post which started last week...Can't believe that i'm so fucking lame now...Almost fainted though...sigh.. nevermind, it'll be cool soon....

life's so like tat

Life is so unfair, life sucks, why like this, why like that and the list can go on endlessly... THIS IS LIFE... if not what else could it be? As i grew up, my experiences and understanding outgrown all these common questions that were constantly stuck in my head. I have learned to appreciate every single moment of my life. I used to envy ppl who have great life and still am but come to think bout it, it felt so pointless... So what they have whatever they want? They can just lose everything in just a snap of finger.

To me, success needs hardwork, patient and willpower. I'm struggling to make one, which can make me proud of myself. It isn't easy -it never was!! If I am willing to take the risk, maybe i'll be able to get through it and maybe not.. It all depends on luck, my luck? not going so well I think but lets not go to that dysfunctional part... Still, I have my very own faith that somehow its all gonna be alright!

my intuition?

It suddenly hit me tat ur not happy. I can feel & sense it... Dunno why, but i think its true. My intuition tells me that ur not happy working here, having hard times, too much pressures.... I think u'll be far more happier back in the other state, rite? Maybe u shudn't even be near to me...tat way u won't be feeling so...

But then again, I have chosen to let go of u. I don't mind bout u much dy.. It just bothered me somehow.... U need to escape, from responsibility, from problems ur facing.... hold on my fren..just keep holding on...



This is a song dedicated to you....

Exam's here again~ I'm not even done with my history...=.="...wish me luck!

a letter to me~

its about time tat i have a word with my own-self...

babe,

life has been hard for u, yes i noe it very well. i've been wit u all along. all ur sadness, happiness, disappointment since young, i understand. But nvm, as u had always made it thru and will always do so...becox u r a strong gal...its a fact...

babe,

life is not jus onli about bad things, there is always good things around u. Just be shrewd and look clearly, dont let go of any opportunity! U might have let go some of da greatest chance u can ever have but tink wise, there are more awaiting for you. U jus lost once, doesnt mean ur a complete loser...take it easy!

babe,

dont worry too much about wat ppl tink of u. Shrug them off, u can do better den them bcox u're special in everywhere u carry urself. YES, u r special, u just din realize it....watever u do, just do it!!GO for da dreams tat u aim for...dont fear to fall, cox wen u fall, u'll learn and be stronger than u ever tot u could be..dont ever hate them, but instead, forgive and love them no matter how bad they treated u or watever bad things they've done unto u..be patient n u'll be awarded...try to be a super nice person!

babe,

i noe u've learned how to pick things up and let it go without any difficulties. U're fully grown up dy..dad wont have to worry so much for u bcox he noes tat u are capable of taking care of urself, he noes tat he can let go of ur hands, he noes he can always count on u and tat forever ur his precious baby...love will always find a way to u, it comes again & again...it never ends...

DESPRA-DO!!

I'm desperate for:

~losing all da fucking weight
~wisdom to excel in my studies, wtf
~patience for everything i do
~RESPECT!!
~hair extension
~tips for my tests, wtf
~a new diet plan!!fuck da sugar blocking plan!!
~confidence in carrying out my personality
~willpower in doing things, wtf
~MONEY$$$$$$!!!!who doesnt?

How much more desperate can i be? I dunno... Hopefully i can overcome all this shit! Fuck all those challenges in my LIFE!!! just GET OUT OF HERE!!!wtf~ And its like so not my day everyday!! CB headache giving me trouble!!WTFWTF!!

take it eEEeee---asy...

been stuck at home for a period of time dy....exam's jus around the corner so i tink i'll jus brush up wit my studies...cant lose anymore...u noe me, always a winner n no losing...i lost once, jus tat very once, doesnt mean i need to give up..take everything easy la...no need so tension de...


these few days i made myself tink. wat do i actuali want in my life, how can i improve my life? how can i achieve my goals? how tis and why tat...really runs a headache in me...i tink i'm ready to let go, of something tat i've been holding for so long tat might never be mine. maybe it wasnt for me all along..its ok..i'll learn and i'm learning, picking up step by step....

peacing out~

is a yeng..

i tink tis song by One Republic is awesome n i do believe alot of u out day love it too eh? The other day on my way back home in de monorail, unexpectedly the song was played...n rite at the chorus i heard ppl humming n singing the lyrics...its like the whole train is going wit the beat n tat includes me myself...hahaha...

Guess the singers reali hit the chart aint they? well i believe every song has their meaning...n tis song, it obvious tat sometimes the mistakes tat we've made is reali unforgivable... its like we took things for granted n wen we lose it, only den we realized tat we were wrong n tried to apologize...but not everything comes the 2nd round again..

The moral of the story? appreciate watever u have, good o bad, life goes on...jus out live ur life...

ata~

Burn, Lose & go away

ala...wats wrong wit me ler???y da weight wont go away de???come on la...i've spent a fortune n a month's hard work n tis is all i get?barely 2kg u noe!!!n its like the shares..going up n down...how can i ever make it for my b'day!!!its jus another2mths plus ya noe!!!

Oh ya..i met celyna back n ROOM n OH MY GOD!!!!she's so DAMN slim dy!!!wtf....haven seen her for 2mths she lose da weight like hell!!!


here's prove...OMG i look so BIG beside her...wtf...

sigh...life doesnt come easy...how much of my fortune have i spent in tis area arr???Y? u tell me la...i'm so fucked up dy...it's nt fair la..if like tat no use den i'd rather be a bulimic...plus aneroxic...n end up in the hospital with all da wires n tubes attached to me...i don give a fuck bout it anymore...

is a fate...

I don't understand why do i alwiz gt stuck wit all the nerds everyway i go...i mean i study in the same class wit nerds, mixd wit nerds(wasnt wat i want), more to list down...i'm actuali nt their type..but den again...why?why?WHY!!!!!am i so stuck wit them!!!!i wanna get out!!!!out of this boring life!!!

why cant i be like the cools one huh? nt qualified??WTF!!!i jus hate the way life is./..suckin til da max ma...its awful!!!!its nt tat i'm da best gal around...jus tat i tink its time to move on!!!dont be so stuck on the past la!!!!

hai yer!!!!!!!!