And March ends....

With emoness over life but happiness with my job.... Well sometimes my job sucks as well with a boss who constantly slander about how bad ur performance is when its the opposite. Yes, life is so unfair but come to tink about it I love my job as well because of the shopping that I've done over the past few months is something that I would have done once in a few months. Now, I'm getting whatever I want each month. I ain't boasting about the greatness about my job because I worked hard for each and every single penny of it. Could say hardwork paid off...
Sometimes I just dunno how to describe the disappointment I feel for my life. Can I categorize myself as useless?failure?hopeless,yes Long time ago, I didn't give up on hope, instead, hope gave up on me. What's remain is faith that I'm never ever gonna let go.

Adui life.

Life is so fan at the moment. Sales dropped and my sleeps has been interrupted every night due to massive wokeupness in the middle of my sleep.

PLEASELA!!!! Let me enjoy my sleep and rest ok. Fuck you problem!

Vice Versa

My life is so funny till I can't laugh a shit out of it. Funny but its true! Rmb a few months ago's post about a bitch whom I hate so much has turned out to be a good fren to me. We no longer have bad comments or any sulky face towards each other. Instead I learnt a lot from her. When business wasn't so good, she constantly on mindsetting myself to think positively, like seriously. No wonder her sales are like bombs everyday! Now I can seriously enjoy my work during all ups and downs. Appreciated her advices.

Why vice versa? Becox my bestfren no longer is a bestfren anymore.. Things has changed, drastically and dramatically. I din want to, no one does. But that's the way how it had to be. I realized that it was easy to find a backup for my place. No big deal. Therefore, I pledged to not having any special bestfren in my life again. Instead, I prefer just closed frens like some of the Mohs. No more sisterhood for me. I've learnt my lesson very well. What's the point of giving out love, sincerity and honesty when all you get in return is one word,"HORRIBLE". Thank you very much for the reminder.

And also for the nightmare.

Scars.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Papa Roach.