Clueless.

I really don't understand why were you sooooo frustrated with me... 3 weeks ago, we were talking tho not close at least there was simple conversation and greetings between us. A few days later, you looked grumpy and all towards me. Ok, maybe you were stressed bout work or studies, fine- that's your excuse i thought for you...But then again, i felt that you're kinda avoiding me...i.e eye contacts, gestures....Hey, i'm a good observer so don't think that i dunno k! Or maybe your shy huh?? And felt something's tinkling on between us??? OMFG, don't make me guess again...Brain's exhausted. You have no idea how happy i was to see you when i thought that i won't be seeing you. Sigh, excuse me for being so childish.

Ladies & Gentlemen,

I think i'm in love...

Parents somehow sucks!!!WTF.

I so hate it when it comes to having problem with parents...What the hell are they thinking...Its really not a necessary for children to suffer only to have a better life later in life because u're not guarantee of a luxurious life even u worked or gone thru hell for your past life....

And i so fucking hate my dysfunctional family because:

the mom is a mental problem patient who came out of nowhere. maybe retarted.

she's stingy, selfish, egoistic, bad tempered, having PMS all the fucking days she lived i guess.( and i'm so pissed off like forever for having her genes!!)

the worst mother anyone could ever had because she's an evil cult!!(don't tell me that i'll suffer the same when i have my own daughter cox i fucking won't be like you!!)

she treat 9 her daughter as a slave and pamper her OMFG! useless son who got probe into jail for stealing a soldier's cheapskate bicycle which cost barely around B$100!!(yes, i still rmb VERY CLEARLY how the fucking shit u got and took it out on me.wtfwtf.)

the son is exactly like the evil bitch whom i call son-of-the-bitch, show off-er just like her bitch mama.wtf.

is a stalker who tends to find my fault and kou jong(report) 9to his bitch mama and the next moment is daily drama u'll see in the not home but hell.

He's also a pain himself because he seem to just bring pain to ppl's life and i tink hell yeah alot of ppl LOVES to see him DEAD in the streets and i'll be the 1st one in line ok.wtf.

Dad aint much different from them cox he used to be the only one that i love in the family until i found out that he attempted to send me to the orphanage when i was 'abandoned' in Malaysia right after my grandma's funeral.wtf

Living here for the first few years here was really a nightmare where i was surrounded by 'ppl from hell' aka other family members who are also selfish & hou lan 7 pat(busybody) ppl

Although college fees were paid by him but now right after graduating when i said i needed to take a break and earning some extra pocket $$$ for my UK program, straightaway allowances were not given so that he could spend on his fucking 'girlfren' i guess.MCB.

How much more further would this carry on? i dunno. u cant blame me for being a green eye monster over other ppl's life cox i'm really fucking jealous ok. u tink i wanna-d this life? think again. It's bullshit man, i'm telling you!!

Rewind

My blog shud hate me like forever bcox i don't blog often due to the lack of time i had for this blog.....Ok!!Ok!!! I admit that i'm way too lazy to update my blog cox i'm not an exciting person and i do not have much happenings around me and bla bla bla....So, wat am i up to recently?? Well, just graduated with a merit in my PR and yes i'm planning to continue my advance BUT not now cox i wanna take a break from assignment, lectures, tutorials and stress at the moment bcox i wanna be in my comfort zone where i can do watever i wan at the moment......

My first escape was to Redang with frenz after the exams and yes i miss it very much especially the quote "EVERYDAY IS THE SAME DAY" which was written at the corner of the check-in counter. Guess to the ppl there that their everyday is the same day...Actually i tink it applies to all of us rite??? Cox if ur nt working den u shud be studying unless ur a lazy pig and u do watcha do everyday- eat, sleep and shit!!!!which seems to be a routine too...

A pit-stop for some pix ok?


so 'serendipity' i like!!!


Hello Redang!!!


Look!! I can swim ok...


Everyone gets a seat....


Some cool icy kacang on the hot, sunny beach..*drOols*



Baby shark konon...corals gt alot la....hampir terhantuk pulak~!!!!


YOHOHO!!! Bring me my rum!!!!



We came with rain, therefore we left with da rain too~

Ish!!Ish....came back kl like a malai po dy.....tan like i have neva ever been and the sunburns hurt ALOT!!!! till i wanna cry.wtf.

Came back kl, work work work and diet diet diet but to no avail i tink.....Aiya...i'm such a failure i noe la wei!!!!!!!!Slap 9 myself den onli u noe!

Most of my frenz, i mean ppl i really noe proceeds to advance la....i wish to join them again for teamwork but i noe i have reach to a point that i cant budge for some moments, therefore, i do not force myself into it.....(Eh! not that i fail any paper o wat arr!!! don simply judge!! i passed all ok!) But i shall not be wasting my one-year break tho....somehow i wish to participate in their projects or assignment as an idea-giver.... sure i noe things will change alot bcox we no longer get together as often as we do in college before...but i really hope that we all wont get unfriendly due to lack of communication....sigh..its revolving now..i could see the effect taking place....Aiya, u all can shut up and dont rmb wat the fuck happen can o not???

Is this wat u ppl wan for the rest of ur life???Dammit!!!Somehow issues doesnt just involve only both parties but also ppl around u all...Have u all somehow thought of the consequences and side-effect towards us da ppl-fren??? It really make me feel akward u noe...So wat if ur opponent is wrong? So wat if ur right all the time and u gt subotage o wat-the-fuck watever u had? Does that make you a winner?? Got title to be won is it???MCB.... Life is way too short to rmb all the shits of life.... I just wanna have happy times, all the time. Yes i'm very selfish, but u can ask, who don wanna be happy all the time????

Becox of this, i somehow feels my heart aching as if its has been bleeding consecutively. Sigh...Somehow, wen i need a companion on my off day, i cant find any despite the fact that my facebook frenlist exceeds 200ppl....Guess i'm not popular with frens huh??Character oso dapat MAID lagi.wtf. Show some respect can or not! I'm also a gurl, i do have my pride too, i deserve to be pampered, cherished and remembered too. All may tink i'm hard, but i aint. It was bcox of the damages done which somehow causes me to be like wat-u-tink-i-am. Like it or not, this is my blog.

GOD DAMN IT!!!!!

Losing faith.

Sometimes i wonder the objectives of my life. It seems to be so confusing, causing me to lose alot of things around me. At times i thought that i've given my very best while getting compliments all over. But in the end everything turned into nothing just by a blink of my eyes. Somehow, i wonder how the hell it happened. Was it my mistake or was it fate? Sigh....

What went wrong? I may never know....I've lost hope, and now i'm starting to lose faith. Pardon me, but this is how life treated me. I'm speechless. I don't think i'll be into studies like ever again. It gives me the creep.....

My Lucky Star.

Also known as "Fang Yang De Xing Xing". This is a 20 episode series that i've watched recently. Nice one tho. The settings and story lines is really impressive if you pay full attention to it. It's one of the most romantic movie that melted my heart and gt me sobbing at the end of da story.

Both the female & male lead actors are very good and pretty and handsome. Da girl, Yoo Ha Na, is a Korean who graduated in a Korean Drama Uni which is very hard to get in, therefore she is one of the best actress around i would say. Jimmy Lin is someone we would all resemble as Edison Chen because of the style and stuff i guess. I've just voted him as my role celebrity.hahahah.( Not becox he looks like edison but becox of tis movie that he acted really good!!)


Guess how old is him????zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......... Can u believe that he is 35 tis year?! He doesnt really look like 35 but the fact he is INDEED 35!!!! Being the curious me, (heheheheh) i sure have done alot of homework on him...

He:

• is born in Tapei, Taiwan in 15th Oct, 1974
• libra
  
• parents wit 1 older &2 younger bro + a younger sis
• is a professional racer
  
• kind- hearted, alwiz take part in charities
• is Kelly chen & Rubin lin's ex.wtf
• is handsome!!!yeh!!
• keeps low profile
• etc, etc, etc......so much more taht i'm so lazy to cont.!

I simply love this portrait!


I tink they shud be a couple. They looked sooooooooooo'chan'.


That red ferarri belongs to Jimmy Lin...Believe me...that guy owns a lot of these thang!

I so fell in love with the theme songs:
"Our Memories" (Wo Men De Ji Nian) + "Speed Of Love" (Ji Su Ai Cheng) by Shivia Lee @ Li Ya Wei.I'm trying to learn them so that i can sing when i'm in K!

Plus, Jimmy Lin's own lyrics, "Dui Wang".

I would say this story is like a fairy tale that it will only happen in movies and not real life. So don't get too emotionally involved in ur lala land after watching it like i did...ahahahahha!!!!

Do check out their behind the scenes in youtube! There was a link that Yoo Ha Na cried for a whole week before the shooting ends. Poor gurl... I understand that feeling bcox after the shooting, she would have to go back to Korea and maybe they all may not be able to meet each other again.....She sobbed," Don't forget me pls....DON'T!!!!!" and went on emo-ing. Other actress or female staff cant hold their tears too....Even i cant...so i too sob along while watching it. Jimmy Lin told her that this would be her first movie and she did great. There will be more to come and in every movie, she must do great just like how she did in this one.In another video, he said to her, " We all will miss you very much. Hope that you will too." Awww.....that was very nice of him.....Sigh.....Dont we all just love fairytales?

iamsmart.wtf

Being a PR practitioner is not easy....
Being a PR student is NOT easy too....wtf..
But i consider myself as lucky because i've taken up PR stuff for around 3yrs and no, things weren't easy ok. Furthermore tis is my last semester and the subject is so fucking hard that i can start banging my head onto the wall.wtf.

Thinkin of a campaign is killing my brain especialy with a lecturer who wants something different and crazy from us...wOooo.....tension-nye... i onli hav approximately 10 days for da press release and photos... where has my creativity gone to??? i find it so hard to think of a simple idea which i believe i could have done it within a snap of my fingers if i were a few yrs younger...(i'm not saying that i'm old la!!!!) Maybe my brain is lack of oxygen, therefore, it is dysfunctioning??? hahahah!!!wtf.

Stolen.

Having the whole month to myself without worrying for my studies gave me the opportunity to do some thinking. Not any critical thinking, just some memories that i had in mind. Friendster and facebook has brought me back to meet all my Brunei frenz whom i gave not seen for da past 9 yrs. Most of them now are studying overseas, still in the same gang like Karen, Abygal, Samuel, Ganapathi, Nicole etc. I noe they still hang around together tho in different countries, studying. Btw, Alicia is in KL and i tink i'm gonna meet her up for some drinks later this week.

I feel happy for them that they can still be together like frenz who grows up together from young till old & this is wat we can call as old frenz. I, on the other hand, wasn't in for that luck. Sure i do have alot of good frenz now, i aint complaining. Just that seeing the frenship that they held is so strong makes me kinda jealous. I asked myself, wat if i graduated there instead of staying here? Could i be like them? By this time i should be in Uni dy but due to some critical reasons, i couldn't. It hurts when adding them up in frenster or facebook we dont talk. Wat was the point???

The thoughts of going back to Brunei is a big question i must consider deeply....Heard tat bro's getting married. When? I dunno...Maybe aint goin back...cox i noe tat i'll meet some old ppl like his classmates and all....But...somehow...i aint ready.

The time aint right.