Beautiful Nightmare

Last nite it was an awkward nite as i had such a horrible nigtmare. I dreamt of my BIG BOSS hunting me down. It was so scary that i forced myself to wake up from it. It has been a while that i had a nitemare. Guess the stress really hit me up to a level. FUCK it.

BipBip fatbunny.

A great massage i had yesterday before rushing to save the supa halo monkey later in the evening. Come to think about it, darn funny wei. A long-time-din-drive de driver me sending monkey to the nearby hospital. Is liddat de lor. Hahahaha..... Really if ppl wanna call me as an emergency ambulance sure have to hold on longer before i reach or even hafta consider how would i reach to them. I'll look into the solution, real soon.

Today's day was so-so. Nothing much without the boss around. Still it doesn't feel right, lack of figures these few days. Darn! Supa dupa tired.

Before I forget, I almost burnt my hot cup noodle in the microwave. Cause me the freak. I'm gonna stay away from it for the time being. Ewwwww.

Peaceful Sunday.

Waking up at 10.30am and out of the sudden i went packing and cleaning all my stuff is something-very-rare for me to do on this day. Normally i would be fatbunny-ing off til noon on this day of every week. Oh well, looks like something positive is up for me. =)

And prolly its gotta do with the happy hours with gals from work, massages, shopping with MattMatt, steambaot and movie with my MohMohs. See, Fat Bunny is so good in enjoying life! LOL.

And i love u all ♥

It's a postpone.

Life with the bank shall start next month instead of this week due to lack of traineeesss...Better train up my routine....

P2 got a new girl. I think.

Oh, Rachel....

Today Rachel came to find me in KL.. Yes, KL...Hahahaha....
We chatted from 9pm till 11.30pm-non-stop....Nice!



Us @ 2006...

September ends.

which is why P3 leaves.
Hope there's a comeback.

Losing faith.

Sometimes i wonder the objectives of my life. It seems to be so confusing, causing me to lose alot of things around me. At times i thought that i've given my very best while getting compliments all over. But in the end everything turned into nothing just by a blink of my eyes. Somehow, i wonder how the hell it happened. Was it my mistake or was it fate? Sigh....

What went wrong? I may never know....I've lost hope, and now i'm starting to lose faith. Pardon me, but this is how life treated me. I'm speechless. I don't think i'll be into studies like ever again. It gives me the creep.....

the time has come...

for me:

to get a wardrobe make-over!!
to embrace a brand new wild year!!!
to go back to basic.wtf
to study for exams before and afta the CNY.wtf
to get another new hairstyle i tink.

So Christmas is over, we're all heading for that year. The year with hopes, happiness and goodness. Can't wait to leave this fucking shit year and move on to a much betta one!

Btw, will be welcoming 2009 at Zouk with the complicated family. FINALLY!!!! ZOUK, here i come!!!

its me...

1.13am in the midnight of a Thursday and i'm missing da tunes n beats...ZZzzzzzzz.....but i'm stuck at home.wtfwtf....Visited sevendays in the evening...gt a dress but unable to use it for the nite.Its use has been procrastinated..

i'm done!

phew!!!...just completed my news release. it took me just 2 hrs to complete it but i procrastinated it for a darn whole week?wtf...tis is me..i'm real..yeah...

tomolo MOS mou?wtf...its like dragging me off...wtf...

i'm off now...ZZZZZzzzzzzz...
sweet dreams!

sleep mode wtf.

The rain moved in again recently causing me to drowse even more which led to countless sleeping hours i have everyday.wtf. sThis is the main cause for me to skip all my lectures in order nt to get wet n sticky all over me.... SOMEBODY PLS SLAP 7 ME!!!!!!!!WAKE UP!!!!WAKE UP!!!!!

Assignments are killing me as usual...onli week 6 but so much, i mean too much to do?! u tell me la, wtf!!!! Btw i have no idea of wat to do o wat syllabus are we in....UH OH!!! wat else could be worst???!!!Everyday i feel so tired & sleepy, wtf...wat's wrong....my tummy if growing like so wild i cant even stop it...cox i don have the time & energy to walk in for futher treatments. Come to treatments, i stil owe them an amout, wtf....

I VOW!!!! nt to increase anything else until i completely completed watever i've got ok? And PLS LA!!!! all the therapist DONT ever push anymore packages to me!!!Fucking sick and tired of it oredi!!!!!

In another thing..well its so inconvenient to be name here..hehehe...i tink it aint working too...maybe i put too much hope dy...NO, I DONT HAVE HOPE nor do i TRUST in HOPE anymore because it fucking cause me to lose everything tat i ever had for!!!!!Sigh...i'll just let life be on its on ok...no plans for now....let it be la...

Am looking forward for the next outing...freaking need my dose of insanity!!its about time thou...hahahah~till then...will keep u all updated...

muaks~

so hottttt!!!

why is the weather so fucking hot huh???can rain abit mou??!!!makes me feel like slapping ppl...

i'm so lazy to attend classes...i've been skipping lectures...if only tutorials aint have no attendance, i fucking don care go n ponteng sumore, wtfwtf...

its week 4 dy...i failed my psycho like shit as expected. no resit tis sem...betta work hard up my butt....

He's flunk dy...no more in Maison....

bye~

lame chats

zx~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wow

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

siapa gip u a cap o???

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

dun 1 tell u

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kakka

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kakaka

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

jeje

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

hmmp

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

don fren u dy

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

y?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

cox u don wan tell me lo

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

aiyo

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

like tht oso dun fren me r?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

alamaks~

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

yalo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

if ur my fren sure tell me de ma..

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

neh,tht 1 ,1 2 chase me 1 la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

aiyo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

o..

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

the myvi la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

da my Vi tat i1 arr

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

icic

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakaka

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

omg

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

u like da cap dy

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

i like the cap dy?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

yalo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

dat he gave u

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakaka

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

cheh

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

like the cap doenst mean anything ge ma

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

right/

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

yala

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

finish ur pr assignment?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

nop

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

u?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

doin nw

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

icic

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

i can tell u i haven start a thing!

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

aha

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

sure mou?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

vry difficult leh

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

haiz..

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

cincai la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

can de la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

u stil gt how much?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

damn alot

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

coz 10 country got 10 media ,10 strategies n 10 tactic n 10 key public

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

but u can repeat some same strategy in some countries

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

yala

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

but cannot completely da same de la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

bt oso need 2 think bout the media all those

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

yala

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

i'm thinkin now

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

these 2days no need zzz dy

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

yala

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

deng

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

tmr no need club jor

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

tomolo club lagi?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

joseph tht day ask me say thursday go club

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

usual lou dei fong

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wa...

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

stil wanna go meh?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

no la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

hw 2 go

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

no need do assignment ?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

ha

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

if go sure can pengsan kau kau dy de lo

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

yala

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

u go la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

i do assignment

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

tak mau

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

i lagi kesian eh if i go

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

cox friday i'm full shift

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

can pengsan on da spot dy

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

kakaka

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

u pengsan in the club

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

coz of the stress

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

jus reached da club can pengsan dy

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

pengsan in front the door thr

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

paiseh~~

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

yalo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

later i'll be famous dy

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

more famous den goldfish

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

so paiseh lo

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

pengsan in front of goldfish

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

nola

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

behind him onli

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

walau

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

he must recognize u dy lo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

yala

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

yier

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

better dun 1

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

so paiseh

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

dat's y i say i'll be more famous den him dy la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

den u all 'dulan'

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

run away...

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakakak

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

ei ask u

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

wat is moola?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

u write it in ur friendster photo de

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

o...my captions is it?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

i oso dunno o..

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakakaka

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

apala u

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

cheh

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

its like

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

o la la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

u noe?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

oh ok~~

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

get it

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

aiyo

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

no meaning ge la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

to me mai gt lo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakaka

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

wat meaning 4 u?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

eh if goldfish recognise me wen i pengsan

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

nvm wat

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

maybe he'll come n ask my name later

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakaka

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

moola= o la la lor....

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

jus told u wat

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

dream ll faster

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

che

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

chhe

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

i got good imagination de lo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

apa che la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

cheh

:~ xEmaNtA~ says:

eh send u tis pic

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

ok

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

ada effect de ler

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

apa effect

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

u dim mou geh?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

u c c la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

nt too much

Transfer of "Picture.jpg" is complete.

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

so?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

macm mana?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

hvn c la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

c nw

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

wah

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

y so blur geh?

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

???!!!

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

itu la effect dia!]

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

i noe la

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

sengaja saja

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

a cheh

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

nice o nt jek?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

nice~~

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

sure la

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

hehehe

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

vomit

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

pr u partner wit hu?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

wan ee

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

oic

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

she done?

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

she doin her part

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

i doin my part lo

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

oic

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

hehhe

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

can intai abit

~ xEmaNtA~ says:

wakaka

▪▪ hwËi xiÄn ▪▪----->Love 2 be single~~ says:

cant

i have a dream....

If i am filthy rich, i wanna


~take up the RF and tone down my hips
~buy some apartments here
~buy a big house back home
~get all my dreamy cars, be it the fairladyZ, civic etc...
~take up beauty course,wtf, must learn proper makeup & appearances
~take up DJ course, be a pro, get my own academy wtf
~hit the gym wtf must keep fit la wei...
~own a beauty & fitness academy, wtfwtf
~get my own club(s)
~take up photography...
~help the poor, its a responsibility ok!
~adopt orphans all over the world- the world needs more ppl like Angelina Jolie ok...
~study in Melbourne...everybody is going there, so why not take the chance?wtf
~expand my experience in the hairstyling industry wtfwtf...
~travel like there's no tomorrow...wtfwtf

currently that's all i can think of, for now. Maybe will have more inspiration in the future wtf.. YES!! i have big dreams, bigger than all the guts you have. I may not achieve it but at least i dare to dream about it. I don't care less if u peeps are gonna laugh at this random post...

Now i'm wondering how can i make a hell of money for all that? Seems impossible huh? Nonetheless, i know what i want in life- my life...

This post can be ignored. Its just an idea came out of nowhere, just to keep myself company by wasting my time wtfwtf...

Monday blues...

Today is a Monday...which i had to work on a full shift...Its been a long, long time ever since my last full shift, like, during the last Christmas! Nvm...holiday is in now....been working only lor...Today the LRT was so packed than ever it was...i wondered why...Sigh...So its what they call it... "Monday Blues"...I really felt the 'blues' lor...

Some random pix...

Freaking hot!was sweating then...


i just realized...the length of my hair!



Typically annoyed by Monday!


Today is also the day i saw someone who resembles you...Alamak terperanjat gila saya! But also OH rindunya saya! He looked yeng.. i mean the guy...I was suprised to spot him in ROOM and i stupidly thought it was you...But then again, he came to be a MALAY guy...OMG but he's freaking cute! Looks like the 'you' when we were on vacation time.... These few days many things occurred to me that reminds me of you...freaking weird...my hairs are standing now...

Anyway, i was still thinking bout the hair extension...should i or should i not do it? I jus realized today that my hair is freaking long dy....dunno why and how, it just seems longer today, even Farrah noticed it too...But my hair DEFINITELY need a trim now...its so so so... flat on the top! I think i should...Its what i wanted to do anyway...so don't freaking care la! just do it...don't like mai remove it lor... Still can use in future nah!

k..that's all for today...will update soon!

life's so like tat

Life is so unfair, life sucks, why like this, why like that and the list can go on endlessly... THIS IS LIFE... if not what else could it be? As i grew up, my experiences and understanding outgrown all these common questions that were constantly stuck in my head. I have learned to appreciate every single moment of my life. I used to envy ppl who have great life and still am but come to think bout it, it felt so pointless... So what they have whatever they want? They can just lose everything in just a snap of finger.

To me, success needs hardwork, patient and willpower. I'm struggling to make one, which can make me proud of myself. It isn't easy -it never was!! If I am willing to take the risk, maybe i'll be able to get through it and maybe not.. It all depends on luck, my luck? not going so well I think but lets not go to that dysfunctional part... Still, I have my very own faith that somehow its all gonna be alright!

a letter to me~

its about time tat i have a word with my own-self...

babe,

life has been hard for u, yes i noe it very well. i've been wit u all along. all ur sadness, happiness, disappointment since young, i understand. But nvm, as u had always made it thru and will always do so...becox u r a strong gal...its a fact...

babe,

life is not jus onli about bad things, there is always good things around u. Just be shrewd and look clearly, dont let go of any opportunity! U might have let go some of da greatest chance u can ever have but tink wise, there are more awaiting for you. U jus lost once, doesnt mean ur a complete loser...take it easy!

babe,

dont worry too much about wat ppl tink of u. Shrug them off, u can do better den them bcox u're special in everywhere u carry urself. YES, u r special, u just din realize it....watever u do, just do it!!GO for da dreams tat u aim for...dont fear to fall, cox wen u fall, u'll learn and be stronger than u ever tot u could be..dont ever hate them, but instead, forgive and love them no matter how bad they treated u or watever bad things they've done unto u..be patient n u'll be awarded...try to be a super nice person!

babe,

i noe u've learned how to pick things up and let it go without any difficulties. U're fully grown up dy..dad wont have to worry so much for u bcox he noes tat u are capable of taking care of urself, he noes tat he can let go of ur hands, he noes he can always count on u and tat forever ur his precious baby...love will always find a way to u, it comes again & again...it never ends...

Everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings, i feel so small. I guessed i need u..Everytime i see u in my dream, i c ur face, ur haunting me... I make believe tat u r here cox its de onli way i see clear. wat have i done?u seem to move on easy...my weakness caused me pain....Nothing seems to be the way that it used to. Everything seemed so shallow, GOD give me truth...I pray tat someday we'll understand wit GOD's all plan and wat he does to us...Don't u run too fast my dear,y don u stop?Stop n listen to my tears cox tat's all i've got...I see somebody's watching over us....



All my life, i've been waiting for u to bring a fairytale my way and living in a fantasy life wit ya...I wonder if u noe how it reali feelsto be left outside alone, wen its cold out here...maybe u shud noe, how it really feels,to be left outside alone...i don feel safe, i need to pray...HEavenly Father,plz, save me...My love is on the line...I'm sick n tired...U din listen,u din care...For a moment i was weak..It feels heavy on my heart to c u like tat...I rmb yesterday, the day before u went away, we were laughing all the way...all of that r left in pieces of a dream....