Once again....

I've been having the feeling of hitting the club recently, dunno why....but all i noe was my last nite's decision proves me rite with satisfaction guaranteed! It was a nite out wit new frenz...time to socialize eh? Got to noe some new kakis which means more clubbing days!!hahahahah!! I just love it! It was DJ Jam in the house,the remixes were not bad but maybe it wasn't our, i mean the ppl in da club's cup of tea...At least the last 30 mins was given back to Goldfish!Awesome!!jus love his beats! It was one of the best nite afta so long....Got high bit...HAHAHAHAHAH!!!wtf...

In addition, my intuition worked again!!!I met him again...same spot!JENG!JENG!JENG!wtf...not coincidence de, i noe....it was fate....goodla...now coming back to KL...wtf...no need travel so far....Stil, i don put any hope ne....cox later sak mong yuet daii arr...wtf...At least i noe, chances of meeting are higher... Oh ya! been cam-whoring all nite...here's some pix!

erm, i don rmb her name la,wtf...

she's just so lucky eh??

ben-da guy who brought us there,

xian, another andrea and i..wtf...

andrea, xian and i

yup! all the kakis!!cam-whoring!!

last but not least, yours truly...

Actuali i was gonna take a pic wit u, but wen i went back to look for u, u're gone dy...back to ur cave, wtf....wat for so early go back hah!!!!haiz....means i'm short of 1 pic...maybe i'll have betta luck nex time...

kThanxBai!

I see ppl breaking up...so complicated, so heart-breaking...i wish i wont be like them in future.. It would be something hard for me to handle...haiz...need to study, tomolo test,gotta work now....

bai!

ppl are like so...wtf

Da bitch threw back da application form telling me tat they don accept it anymore...if she had said it in proper manners, i wont mind,...but wit her fuckin bitch looks and acts i reali cant stand it...immediately i tore the form rite in front of da bitches!wtf...who do u tink ur talkin to?hey, we, the students, pays ur salary ok? ma ci bai...stil wanna give me da mahai face look arr...cb...

Nex is KLCC management, wtf, jus bcox ppl are tourist den no need to pay for da damanges made to our company arr...normally these are the ppl who holds high post....so scared of being troubled...say u babi memang babi la...wtfwtf! And to the bitch of tat wtf troublemaker... fuck to you til hell....wtf...

I almost had a fight in da club last night!wtf sei fei lou arr... u tink u rich so wat??do i fucking care bout it....wtf...mahai, so lan wai dai lo, offer us ur table...as if we begged for it...fuck to hell to da bitch who pushed me...ccb....

This may sound to be a VERY DAMN FRUSTRATED POST! but all well ends well...it was the time wen i knew tat "u" were in the club...so damn miss u neh....u din notice me...neither could u recognize us cox i noe u don give a damn bout us anymore cox u tink tat we're not worth ur time...nonetheless, i was damn happy and glad for meeting u again...i jus knew it...i felt ur presence there...believe me..my intuition has alwiz been accurate, jus like wen i met u in another club and sharing the same table wit ya...Den i bumped into ur fren,who i called out to but he has no idea who the hell i was..wtf, so blur...came up and asked if we know each other...so funny man...din get to talk to u but onli to ur best buddy. I know he's one of ur best heng dai..cox he goes everywhere wit u, rite?hahahah~dunno why,but i felt as if i know alot bout u..maybe bcox i love and care for u...

Its been a while...

It was cloudy wen i went up to the fortune teller's place. I sat down n she started shuffling da cards. She said tat life could be so much better for me, but bcox i've met wit dead ppl n ritual ceremories,bad stuff followed me...watever help o things i do, turn to be unappreciated as ppl took me for granted. I tend to do things eagerly which causes me to lose the things tat were supposed to be mine.

I have alot of guys coming afta me-(reali?) but i din like them and the person whom i have loved is confused which leads to disappointment....well, all i can say tat wat she said was true...most of it la...hopefully afta she performes da ritual for me, i'll have a better life....cox she also hope tat i won't regret after i got married...(talk about marriage huh!!!)isnt it funny?

We're born, study, work, get married, have family, our kids grow up, study, work got married n we'll be grandparents and we die...its like a routine eh?i'm 21, life jus started,another new century for me, the begining of my journey and i'm already moaning....

Everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings, i feel so small. I guessed i need u..Everytime i see u in my dream, i c ur face, ur haunting me... I make believe tat u r here cox its de onli way i see clear. wat have i done?u seem to move on easy...my weakness caused me pain....Nothing seems to be the way that it used to. Everything seemed so shallow, GOD give me truth...I pray tat someday we'll understand wit GOD's all plan and wat he does to us...Don't u run too fast my dear,y don u stop?Stop n listen to my tears cox tat's all i've got...I see somebody's watching over us....



All my life, i've been waiting for u to bring a fairytale my way and living in a fantasy life wit ya...I wonder if u noe how it reali feelsto be left outside alone, wen its cold out here...maybe u shud noe, how it really feels,to be left outside alone...i don feel safe, i need to pray...HEavenly Father,plz, save me...My love is on the line...I'm sick n tired...U din listen,u din care...For a moment i was weak..It feels heavy on my heart to c u like tat...I rmb yesterday, the day before u went away, we were laughing all the way...all of that r left in pieces of a dream....

i reali dunno wats love....hard to get n find...i've alwiz experienced failure everytime love involves. wat to do?i'm not an expert wei...shud i say it was fate?my fate to experience these stuff?did i do any wrong?a fren told me tat we gals shud neva let the opposite sex noe tat we've fallen for them...err...sounds lame to me..its not wrong to love somebody tho they might not like u..

i used to befriend my crush with other frenz...but it fell apart at the very day he left us...i dunno y, maybe bcox he tinks tat we were not worth his time....he jus vanished, into thin air...til the very day i met him in da club.wat a coincidence...fate again?he wasn't bother to greet me anyway, wtf, how cruel he could be..yes, i confess tat i love him, but i din do anythin bout it. u see, me and my frenz, we've gt confused signals from him...as like he also had feeling for me...but den, i reali dunno wat had happened..its like we were stil close frenz and the nex day we're strangers...

I'll call it fate again tat let me came across his sister's blog(i've met her twice n she pretty too) i found out some of his family background, sumthing tat we all would neva tot of...now onli i understand wats wit his attitude...i've gain knowledge n understanding bout his life....i felt sorry to him...but who's gonna pity me for having a similar situation like him?at least he has a damn cool sis who loves him...wat bout me?

I din hav enuf love since child hood but stil hav love for this lil' idiot...its like love blinded me...He noes how i feel...Sumtimes things jus wont come back after it has slipped away...there's not alwiz a second chance u noe...i'm so stupid!!i have loved him for da pass two years...TWO YEARS!!!!witout any communication at all...but i stil love him...maybe tat's bcox i'm a cancerian, loyal to love...its so true..ppl tells me to LET GO GAL!!!i cant...jus cant...i'm holding on every hope i hav...

Believe me, everyone who noes me, noes bout him...cox u'll brag bout da 1 tat u love...i jus hope tat i'll be able to change his mind gua...tis is any typical gurl's thinkin...o jus hope tat GOD can let me meet another guy...jus let me forget bout him la....plz.....

k thx bai~

My silent prayer~

Lord,

What has come over me?

That i've been judged tis way...
Y can't ppl see de other way...
instead of pointing fingers at me...

did u noe
did u hear my cries in silent?
do u love me??

Father,

Only today i realized y it happened to me...
a few yrs back, a similar incident had happened...
i lost my phone...
i said it was the gal...

the gal who happened to steal her fren's before...
a gal whom i judged tat she took mine...
Now, i felt how she felt...
it was terrible....now onli i knew...
tat v do hav to pay for da things v did....

I'm wondering....

those who judged me,
are they gonna pay wat they did??
especially tat Pastor Kenneth...
i cant help but to hate him...
for his merciless words...
accussation without evidences...
He forced me to admit...
tat i was the thief...
how could i?
wen i knew nothin of it....
u judge him lord....

But then i noe,
tat truth neva reveals its true self....
causing pain to the victim....
isn't it true??
tat justice was neva on my side???

I saw,
ppl found happiness...
ppl found love,joy n peace...
where's mine...
u noe i noe.....

between us there's no secrets...

may i exchange all my sadness, hatred, burdens...

for love, happiness, joy and peace??

wen will all the sufferings be gone?

Yes!
i envy ppl who r loved...

ppl who owns all de materials...

ppl who r pampered...

wasn't it unfair???

for 20 yrs....

how hav i lived??

i tried to live life cool like them..

but u din let me....

i tried to stand stil...

but u made me fall....

a fren told me tat,

u'll neva let me go thru things tat i couldn't overcome...

u love me eversince the very day i was born...

u treat me like ur very own...

u have greater plans for me....

den, why do i stil gotta pray??

u've everythin unto ur hands now...

i have no choice rite??

i'm nt trying to blame u...

but lookin at my surroundings..

i dont understand...

cox i neva get wat i wanted nt to say needs...

i'm glad to hav a new family,

made up if new frenz....

de old 1 is forever gone...

things r nt da same anymore...

never again....

I hope...

tat there's a plan..

a betta 1 ahead...