My silent prayer~

Lord,

What has come over me?

That i've been judged tis way...
Y can't ppl see de other way...
instead of pointing fingers at me...

did u noe
did u hear my cries in silent?
do u love me??

Father,

Only today i realized y it happened to me...
a few yrs back, a similar incident had happened...
i lost my phone...
i said it was the gal...

the gal who happened to steal her fren's before...
a gal whom i judged tat she took mine...
Now, i felt how she felt...
it was terrible....now onli i knew...
tat v do hav to pay for da things v did....

I'm wondering....

those who judged me,
are they gonna pay wat they did??
especially tat Pastor Kenneth...
i cant help but to hate him...
for his merciless words...
accussation without evidences...
He forced me to admit...
tat i was the thief...
how could i?
wen i knew nothin of it....
u judge him lord....

But then i noe,
tat truth neva reveals its true self....
causing pain to the victim....
isn't it true??
tat justice was neva on my side???

I saw,
ppl found happiness...
ppl found love,joy n peace...
where's mine...
u noe i noe.....

between us there's no secrets...

may i exchange all my sadness, hatred, burdens...

for love, happiness, joy and peace??

wen will all the sufferings be gone?

Yes!
i envy ppl who r loved...

ppl who owns all de materials...

ppl who r pampered...

wasn't it unfair???

for 20 yrs....

how hav i lived??

i tried to live life cool like them..

but u din let me....

i tried to stand stil...

but u made me fall....

a fren told me tat,

u'll neva let me go thru things tat i couldn't overcome...

u love me eversince the very day i was born...

u treat me like ur very own...

u have greater plans for me....

den, why do i stil gotta pray??

u've everythin unto ur hands now...

i have no choice rite??

i'm nt trying to blame u...

but lookin at my surroundings..

i dont understand...

cox i neva get wat i wanted nt to say needs...

i'm glad to hav a new family,

made up if new frenz....

de old 1 is forever gone...

things r nt da same anymore...

never again....

I hope...

tat there's a plan..

a betta 1 ahead...